It was not a matter of when because I had definitely made up my mind that I was going to commit suicide it was just a matter of how I was going to do it.  It was a couple days after Christmas and I was laying in bed waiting for the sun to come up and I kept hearing this song repalying in my head.  I didn't know the name of it but I knew it was a BTS song that I had heard before.  I knew that it came after Pied Piper on my playlist.  So I found it and played it continuosly.  The song: Epiphany.  I listened to…