The Best Worst Moments In Life
If I were to go back to the beginning I won’t know where to start, really. Growing up as a kid, music always excites me. I didn’t really have a preference and loved anything as long as it made me happy. Fairly recently I’ve discovered the song that I cherished so much as a child and surprisingly it was a kpop song by the legendary Girl’s Generation.
I’ll be ashamed to say that my little cousin introduced me to BTS. They always loved singing Fake Love and that made me like the song too. However; I made the mistake of not really acknowledging the artist of the song. Fast forward a year later I made friends with a guy who loved the group, he would always talk about Park Jimin and I found it so cute, but yet again I just brushed it off. Despite this the universe had different plans yet again while watching a tv show BTS appeared. This made me stop and realize maybe these moments were signs and I should check them out. Being so busy with school, life and finances I didn’t have the time to do so sadly.
Well it wasn’t until everything didn’t go as planned for me. I had entered a very toxic relationship that left me heartbroken. During that period I too found out that two people I’ve cherished for years and who I considered to be sisters weren’t really who they said to be. It was heartache after heartache and I began to put up this facade that I was okay. No one around me questioned a thing and would describe me as being bubbly and so outgoing. I was hurting. I really was with no one to talk to.
Freshman year was something that I always looked forward to and just like that everything went the wrong way. It wasn’t until one morning while binge watching videos on Facebook that I came across a BTS boy with luv performance. I really loved the song and Taehyung’s blue hair really drew me in. After reading so many positive comments about the group I went straight to Google with the idea that, “I just want to know the name of the blue-haired guy.”
Oh, but did that one Google search play the role of a leaping pad that would soon launch me into the world of excitement and self love. I went from wanting to know their names to funny compilations and by the end of the day I was hooked. I can still remember me trying to recite the fanchant for the first time and getting angry every time I missed a name. Around the time I had no idea of the apps BTS had, I really just watched their YouTube channel but oh was I in for a treat once I heard about the multiple platforms.
The worst moments of my life soon began to turn into the best moments. In a way I am glad that those moments happened. It led me to so many friends and 7 individuals who understood me and wanted to change me. I am who I am today because of BTS and the best version of myself. I would give BTS the world if I can because they changed mine for the better.
Although I haven’t attended a concert in person yet I’m happy that I attended many online ones and the most memorable one for me was the BangBangCon 24hr YouTube Concert. Fellow ARMY’s were so kind to me in teaching and helping me navigate through everything and I cried during the concert because to me it was my first ever concert with the guys and it was great.
I wanted to share my experience to let you know that all things happen in your life for a reason. The worst moment in your life can lead you to the best moment. If you love something don’t be afraid to express your love for it. Although many people would tease and ridicule you it can never overpower the love and faith BTS has in you. If you are willing and able to love 7 guys who you’ve never met before then you are able to love yourself. Back then I didn’t know how to love myself but with the help of Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook I learnt that self love is the best love and broken things are still beautiful. Thank BTS, my voice, my heart, my love and my best friends.